I’m in one hell of a slump.
I don’t know if it’s the general blue feeling I’ve been experiencing lately, or my propensity to take on WAY more than I can actually handle, but…I’m frozen. I feel like I can’t get anything done. I have a million projects on the go, and rather than focusing on one at a time and seeing it through to completion, I find myself dancing around sticking my fingers into all of them and finishing nothing.
I like to think I’m driven. I like to think I can master this whole discipline thing. But frankly, discipline isn’t all that much fun. It’s easier to waste time on the internet. It’s easier to wait until the perfect moment comes along. It’s easier to blame my lack of productivity on those absent douchebag Muses (who, by the way, are not getting the raise they requested).
But really? It’s me. Of course it is. I’m the one finding excuses. I’m the one wasting time on things that don’t matter. I feel scattered and overwhelmed right now and I’m having a hard time digging myself out of this hole. (Yes, I know I’m being whiny. And yes, I know I don’t have patience for whiners. But I’m not perfect, and it is what it is.)
I know, in my heart of hearts, that the only thing that will fix this is — you guessed it — focus. I need to pick the one thing that’s more important than all those other things and pummel it until it cracks and something wonderful falls out.
Now if I could only figure out what that thing is…
3 thoughts on “F-O-C-U-S Spells…Ah, Fuck It.”
We’ve all been there, eh? I always write a top ten list that features — in full detail — all the things that are keeping me from putting my nose to the stone. They usually end up being funny as fuck, then I post them haha! good luck yo!
Ha, thanks! I’m an instant fan of your blog: righttobitch.com is genius. Fellow bitcher, checking in 😉
Right on! Thanks so much! Looking forward to following you as well. You are an excellent writer based on what I’m reading — the good ones are hard to come by…